I feel like I am moving through clouds…seeing new things, feeling the chills, watching my heart stop, my breath held…another day passes infront of my eyes. Yesterday…. I was gaslighted by 2 abusive alpha males in a third world country. I saw it happen to me, Lies made up with a smile Oh the mocking […]Read More Gut pain & Gaslighting
For as long as I can remember I have had dental issues. Going for braces, to a nearby town, riding in the car with my mom, and uncle S and his doll like daughter….she committed suicide I heard, when she was only 27….why I have wondered. But I remember her kindness and smile and a […]Read More The mental & the dental chair
Please identify your fellow companions in your journey through life…who are the closest to you, part of you. Who is your most trusted person? Yes. You heard me right. It’s important to assess these close relations. Examine them…flip em turn them inside out, find those examples when you felt like someone just slapped you and […]Read More Abuse: In the name of Love!
My heart is heavy since yesterday. This very personal conversation I am sharing with you because it triggered a series of memories. Most are foggy, but a few just hit me hard…..I cant believe what I see!! But I trusted her She is my mother I love her No matter what I have been there […]Read More A daughter? In a third world country?
Yes…that’s actually a question… And the answer is yes. …that’s what I believed..education builds character, defines who you are, gets you respect and more money, etc etc. So, I settled with a IV league PhD holder. Everybody approved of the match. I feel really stupid in this moment, as I write about my belief system […]Read More Can a PhD holder from IV league be a narcissist?
Alrighty… Going back in time, I was thinking about all the different times I didnt die. I survived to tell a story, my story. I knew in that moment, when death stared me in the eye…everytime…I didnt feel fear, very strangely. Everytime, I just went Into auto pilot…warrior mode. I will fight till I am […]Read More Until we are dead, it just remains a speculation
“It’s my hell….”… that’s how mental illness feels to anyone who can feel. And no-one can ever know what my hell feels like. I used to feel that way…felt like it..trapped in hell…no sign of hope or help or love…day after day…nothing could bring a smile… And then something happened…3 years ago… I strung some […]Read More I was left for dead everytime….and everytime i had to be reborn