Think about it… (My conversation withthe unknown) A: are you girl baby or boy baby? D: I am told I am a girl….so… A: Did someone touch you? D: yes…but it was a game we played A: Go stand in that line (que) that says oblivious to abuse. D: but there are boys too in […]Read More What if I was not a label?
I did it yesterday I went to the police station and I filed a domestic abuse case against the man I married 22 years ago. I didnt care…I just had to do right by me and my honour. It’s a crime against humanity to keep unsuspecting humans as nonexistent entities. I handed the marriage photograph […]Read More I stood up for me…
A few things I have learnt about me…noticed for me, living with labels all my life, labels from the mental health spectrum. But holds true for all human beings. When we are juggling too many things, our brain gets tired. And Then again the next day we do the same….keep living with the noise that […]Read More Mentally healthy? Slow down…
I am in the middle of some life changing decisions, last coupla days… And yesterday I discovered something….which was such an eye opener….like a flash of lightning in the sky. Their whole game plan was / is hinged on my keeping quiet!! ..shh Seriously? So, when I spoke yesterday…started speaking, using words I never spoken […]Read More Important discovery w.r.t. the Narc
Stigmatized from the stigma of being born a female My conversation with my younger daughter (D) Me: I am a stigma because i have BPD ..a illness. D: what… what is stigma mean? Me: Its a stain…a shame D: seriously? Me: well…. Since i am writing about my BPD…writing my truth….what if people say your […]Read More The stigmatized BPD being with mental powers!
Written June 2018: before the disCovery of truth. “BC” I want to call it. (It also stands for a very favourite cussword of mine…hehe) Look around you….at people you have any relation/interaction with….yes….including the maid and the driver, and the neighbor and the Relatives and friends….people closest to you….people you TRUST fo watch out for […]Read More Toxic Relationships 101: written “BC” before discovery of the truth! June 2018
Where do I start…when I am caught up in the middle of it.. abuse…ongoing mental abuse. Like I woke up to the word Abuse only 6 months ago. And I started digging and finding so many stories…that felt like me. I read all of you….and I found my eyes! I had been living under the […]Read More Where to start, when being mentally abused?
This book has been my favourite since I first read it with my kid a long time ago. I have always found it to be so true and funny. It’s a story of a lion who can do magic. And he goes begging to the zoo to be accepted. Luckily for him, a few kids […]Read More “Circus of the mentally gifted”….now playing worldwide!
I have been forever struggling with this one….how helpless money has made me feel. How much money do I need to survive till I die? How much money can I make? What if I am a stay at home mom and the husband is the provider? Why do I always save money on myself? A […]Read More The Affect of money on mental health!
All of you, yes you, my readers and likers and followers and commentators….do you know me? Yes… you know my pain, you feel it, you shed a tear, you all have come to my rescue at the drop of a note! 10 months ago I first stepped out in the real world. I had been […]Read More Do you know me?
I am looking for memories and trying to see through decades of lies that I was told and I happily accepted and lived them!! But everytime…something in me used to snap and i would shout and scream and exhibit my frustration with anger. I couldn’t find words. Did anyone know that I felt so shitty […]Read More Looking for ongoing patterns of abuse in my life
…I have heard that a lot. And never paid it a mind. Whats Whats your purpose? What do you do? What will you do after you have done what you were purposefully doing? Why dont you have a better purpose? “I can make you my purpose, it will keep me entertained for the rest of […]Read More What is my purpose in life?