Wake up call by a BPD woman

Please identify your fellow companions in your journey through life.

3 categories : the Victim, the predators, if you are able to identify one predator, you will start finding more. Trust me. They hunt in packs and take turns. The Rescuer….your universe that heals you.

Example… the trees you hug, the team of doctors, the brand of cigarettes that Keeps you company everyday…..and imaginary Utopia. I wrote the following note (list) yesterday July 12th. I apologize for the hand writing. I am still in shock after identifying the predators in my life. How can my saviour and family be the predator? Predator means who eats you up… Nobody has eaten me. I am still alive.
I dont have any voice left…only tears and prayers
I just want to stop everything around me. Just stop this game…I am the game…being played with…ignored. my 2 girls…children abused. We are human beings and deserve some dignity. Aren’t we family? I havr a marriage certificate. My daughters are waiting for their mom to get better for the last so many years…..taking abuse along with me. I just couldn’t see the abuse or the abuser. I only saw family…my family. My daughters cousins and friends. My daughters have cried numerous tears…I am surprised that we are alive and trying to fight for our smiles..we live huddled together…shhh … Don’t say a word because the cops will be called on me. My girls will be raken away from me….because i have no money to raise them. What will happen to my girls. I am all they have. Why would family call the cops on me…and call my girls abusive names. . But i am family…why then? Who am I?

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